Alright ... so I have tried an uncountable number of times to write and let you all know what is going on in my life, however for varriousw reasons being for the most part different from situation to situation I am sitting here with one month left in my Eurail and aparently haven't written anything. Sorry about that lol But I'll hold on to what I said before... It gives me more to talk about when I get home. ( Man oh Man you all going to be so sick of me tellign stories : )
However a few days ago I had a day that was just woth writing about, if only for the reason that I needed to get it off my chest lol.
Here it goes...
Alright.... so it all started a long long time ago on a dark and stormy day. Alrigth well it was actualy not to bad a day, a little windy maybe and yes it did rain... but no thunder. And it was only what ... sunday, monday... doesnt matter.
So I got up from my hostel in Berlin only to see that it was raining but that the person who had been in my room the night before had stolden my unbrella. So off I went thru the rain and all to buy a new one even tho at that point there was no reason to ... I was soked. By the time I got to the station I had to wait over 2 hours for the next train to Rostock witch is where my eurail book says I must go to get a ferry to Finland.
The train from Berlin was rather uneventfull except for the loud happenings of a 6 year old boy and his mother the whole ride there. (The fact that they were yelling in German didn't help)
So I arrive in Rostock, least to say wet and with a headace, only to have it worsened by the customer service lady not being able to speak english. Lets just say in a matter of 5 minutes I had all my books out and spred amung 3 security gaurds , who also dont speak any english, my eurail map layed out on the counter and my bags on the floor my eurail pass in the hand of a very flustered old woman who thought she could speek english but had no idea what I wanted, and a line up of very angy travelers wanting and waiting to buy tickets.
Finally after much acting and dacing around on my part I got thru to them that I wished to know where I can catch a boat to Finland. Turns out that its not in Rostock... it's in a port village I'd have to get to by train, and guess what , I just missed the last derect train by something like 3 minutes. so I waited, traveled, transpherd, waited and traveled some more, and finally got there.
Its getting dark now.I had been counting on this ferry so I didnt have a place to stay and this ports side village didn't look like it would be to acomidable of my sleeping needs.
So I wanlked and found a ferry line. Another person who doesn't speak english (at this point im wondering how long it would take me to learn German) but I got to her allot faster and she told me she goes (well her company goes) to Sweden. I would have to go to the other line. when I asked for the line of Supperfast Ferries witch is the one that takes eurail travelers she said 'no, not name, but you find' and she pointed. I should have known right there... this wasnt going to be good.
When I entered the ship company that she spoke of, the woman spoke perfect english with a bit of a western european accent, how refreshing. I explained to her what I wanted and she was very nice in making up my ticket. Then she informed me of the cost. 135.00 euro.
I dont think so!
Again I brought out the map the books and the sceduale I carry around like a bible to tell her that was not right. she assured me it was and the reason being ... the company that gave the discout to people like me had been taken over... it didn't exist any more and therefore neither did my way to Finland. I dont think I need to say that I wasn't about to pay over 100 euro for any ride when I payed so much for my eurail in the first place.
So here I am.... its dark now... I have no where to go... I'm wet ... Im lonly... and now EVERY SINGLE plan I had made for the next 2 weeks has been blown to bits by this lady who is not impressed at the fact that I think crying will get me any where. Fact of the matter was I couldnt help myself. I broke down droped my bad and needed a tissue. (that only making me more upset)
I didnt know what I was going to do. After some alone time in the bathroom I came back to grab my bag only to find that when I had droped it I had sqashed and broken my water bottle and now I had to use my already wet sweater to mop up the water and that didnt put the lady in any better mood... not that I cared.
She told me I could leave my bag behinde the counter to go look in to other companies so that was what I did. After allot of walking, asking allot of questions and one more break down on the side of the road. I went back to the first ferry comapny, I asked how much to Sweden and they told me ... 15 euro (not as good as free... but it was a pålace to sleep for the night. I'd figure out what I wanted to do when I got there. Went back grabed my bag.
So thats what I did. At 11:00 pm I was on the 'Huckleberry Finn' to Sweden and met 4 Swiss guys who I sat with, they wernt speaking english so it still ment I didnt have any one to talk to but when they orderd drinks, 5 came for 4 guys and it turned out one was for me :) I had a bad sleep but at least I was warm. I woke up and I was in Sweden and that is my story. It might not sound that bad... but it was and you'r just going to have to belive me :P
I would like to add now tho that the day I got in I went to the info centre and met 3 people... all fluent in english. We just so happend to be derected to the same hostel and when we go there we were all in the same room. Stewart and I wanted to go to Finalnd and both just so happened to have eurail. We went to the same comapny that I should have gotten in Germany and that the lady told me didnt exsist any more either, but well... it was there. The 2 of us made a booking together and cost us 0.00 euro + booking fee witch came out to like 2.50 euro for a ship to and from Finland. (thats 1.25 euro per night accomedations right there) so thats what we did. and it was great! We had a great time on this massive ship, stayed 2 days 1 night in the capital of Finland and then came back on another fabulouse ship. Now Im back in Sweden talking a night train to Oslo Norway tomorrow. Everything worked out better that I would have guessed it would as I was walking in the dark in a little northern German village getting splashed by passing trucks.
Thank Goodness
Saturday, September 15, 2007
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Don't worry ... I'm not dead.
Alright every one... So I realize that it has been a long time...a VERY long time since I wrote here. I spent so much effort on this site when I first got here in Ireland that I now curse myself for not keeping up on it. But hey look at it this way: If I told you everything on a daily basis, Then I would have no stories to tell when I get home :D that's my theory and I'm sticking to it.
Plus I'm sure you all know what it's like when life takes over...and that it has. So much has happened in the last 3 months I don't even know where to begin. The more and more I put it off, thinking that nothing worth writing about has happened, the more and more things started happening, till I just got to the point where I gave up the hope of being able to write it all down. So to fall short of writing you a novel… I will, like I said, save the stories for when I get back home.
However after getting a job, making great friends and actually getting in to some sort of demented routine, I am again on the move. In 7 hours from now I will be on my way to the airport to start my 3 month tour around Europe. First stop...Venice Italy!
I will be traveling for the first month with my friend from high school Ashley. Down south thro Italy, then across by ferry to Grease and then north from there. That's the plan so far. I'm not going to embellish too much on details, because I have to come to realize that very little in you life can be completely planned out. And there is always a chance that what is planned out wont turn out the way you wanted it to. Since leaving home I think the biggest lesson that I have learned is that the only thing you can do is try and prepare your self as much as possible for what could possibly happen and when something does happen you hope it nothing you can't handle. Take it in stride smile and have fun...things will work out.
If any one here reading this is thinking “WHO THE HELL IS THIS?! IT CAN'T BE OUR OVERLY PREPARED NESSA!!” You're not alone...I'm saying the same thing!
So anyway...Lots to come. I'll make sure of it!
Plus I'm sure you all know what it's like when life takes over...and that it has. So much has happened in the last 3 months I don't even know where to begin. The more and more I put it off, thinking that nothing worth writing about has happened, the more and more things started happening, till I just got to the point where I gave up the hope of being able to write it all down. So to fall short of writing you a novel… I will, like I said, save the stories for when I get back home.
However after getting a job, making great friends and actually getting in to some sort of demented routine, I am again on the move. In 7 hours from now I will be on my way to the airport to start my 3 month tour around Europe. First stop...Venice Italy!
I will be traveling for the first month with my friend from high school Ashley. Down south thro Italy, then across by ferry to Grease and then north from there. That's the plan so far. I'm not going to embellish too much on details, because I have to come to realize that very little in you life can be completely planned out. And there is always a chance that what is planned out wont turn out the way you wanted it to. Since leaving home I think the biggest lesson that I have learned is that the only thing you can do is try and prepare your self as much as possible for what could possibly happen and when something does happen you hope it nothing you can't handle. Take it in stride smile and have fun...things will work out.
If any one here reading this is thinking “WHO THE HELL IS THIS?! IT CAN'T BE OUR OVERLY PREPARED NESSA!!” You're not alone...I'm saying the same thing!
So anyway...Lots to come. I'll make sure of it!
Thursday, April 26, 2007
April 24-26 2007
As you can probably tell I'm starting to find life here a little bit more bearable, it's becoming more "the norm", I'm "getting in to the swing of things" as you would say. My job I think has had allot to do with that, so not only do I feel like a member of this society (as new a member as I am) but I am also tied down from going any where 5 days a week, wow it's almost like being back home. :)
That is why I have decided to come back... no I'm just pulling your leg! But seriously;
I must admit that when I started planning for all this, this wasn't exactly what I had in mind. I mean I knew that I was going on a work visa, I knew I would be basing myself out of Dublin Ireland, and I knew I'd probably work for a while, but those were all words. I focused all my plans and thoughts on the traveling part, the going out and seeing things up close that most people have only seen in pictures or the T.V (Witch by the way is another thing I've gotten used to not having) I thought so hard about that and got so excited for it, that when I woke up yesterday morning I had to seriously think... this isn't exactly what I wanted to be doing, I could be doing this back home but this is where I am ... and this is what I'm doing now... and it came to me that I am damn well happy about it.
I look at how this last week has gone, it went by so fast I can hardly believe it. I know that at the moment it all seems like forever, but as I stand a few days away from 1 month, I just know its going to be great. I know I've done so much in just one months time and that can make it seem like it went by fast, and that makes me wonder now that I'm in my routine, whats next? I think that the next two months are going to be allot like this week has been. Working quite a bit maybe seeing the odd movie or going out the odd night, a few things to look forward to (last week it was my birthday, this week it's Ashley's visit! :D) The random or planed correspondence home, and allot of improvising!
I know that nothing works out the way you plan it to and that completely half the fun ( the other half for me is the planing itself, call me weird!) but I think that I have a rough idea. I stay here doing what I'm doing until the end of June, 2 months, then so far as has been planned I have some one coming to visit for 2 weeks and we will travel around Ireland together, I'm sending all my living things, items I've accumulated and yes gifts home with them because it would cost a small fortune to send it back home through the mail. Then I'm off on the 15th of July to Italy with Ashley one month of traveling with her and then I'm on my own, doing my own thing for 2 months. That is what I'm here for, I am so excited! Then after that, the middle of October, I think that I'm going to live in a small Irish town not to sure where or witch one, but to just get a different feel than the city. I might work in a hostel or something... or maybe I'll just take one heck of a long vacation before heading home for Christmas. (For those of you who know me though it will more likely be the first option lol.)
I'm up for it. I'm just worried now that I wont have anything else to blog about when my life starts to be more boring than this in the next 2 months... theres only so many ways I can make working as a waitress sound interesting and I think you've all heard way to many times that my room mates and co-workers are nice.
Other than that I talked to Toddar this morning, kinda upsetting because I had been looking forward to it all week, but he was really tired , it only lasted an hour, and he couldn't talk because Justin was sleeping in the room. But oh well Sundays convo will be better and plus... Ashley's coming from Scotland tomorrow to stay with me for five days! We've been planning this for months but it's finally happening, I swear I'm like a kid on Christmas eve. I bought tickets to go see Alexus on fire with Jill and J.B. So I have allot going on...I'm doing alright.
P/S... Isn't it amazing how I can make tree days of nothing in to one of the longest posts? It's a gift I'm telling you.
That is why I have decided to come back... no I'm just pulling your leg! But seriously;
I must admit that when I started planning for all this, this wasn't exactly what I had in mind. I mean I knew that I was going on a work visa, I knew I would be basing myself out of Dublin Ireland, and I knew I'd probably work for a while, but those were all words. I focused all my plans and thoughts on the traveling part, the going out and seeing things up close that most people have only seen in pictures or the T.V (Witch by the way is another thing I've gotten used to not having) I thought so hard about that and got so excited for it, that when I woke up yesterday morning I had to seriously think... this isn't exactly what I wanted to be doing, I could be doing this back home but this is where I am ... and this is what I'm doing now... and it came to me that I am damn well happy about it.
I look at how this last week has gone, it went by so fast I can hardly believe it. I know that at the moment it all seems like forever, but as I stand a few days away from 1 month, I just know its going to be great. I know I've done so much in just one months time and that can make it seem like it went by fast, and that makes me wonder now that I'm in my routine, whats next? I think that the next two months are going to be allot like this week has been. Working quite a bit maybe seeing the odd movie or going out the odd night, a few things to look forward to (last week it was my birthday, this week it's Ashley's visit! :D) The random or planed correspondence home, and allot of improvising!
I know that nothing works out the way you plan it to and that completely half the fun ( the other half for me is the planing itself, call me weird!) but I think that I have a rough idea. I stay here doing what I'm doing until the end of June, 2 months, then so far as has been planned I have some one coming to visit for 2 weeks and we will travel around Ireland together, I'm sending all my living things, items I've accumulated and yes gifts home with them because it would cost a small fortune to send it back home through the mail. Then I'm off on the 15th of July to Italy with Ashley one month of traveling with her and then I'm on my own, doing my own thing for 2 months. That is what I'm here for, I am so excited! Then after that, the middle of October, I think that I'm going to live in a small Irish town not to sure where or witch one, but to just get a different feel than the city. I might work in a hostel or something... or maybe I'll just take one heck of a long vacation before heading home for Christmas. (For those of you who know me though it will more likely be the first option lol.)
I'm up for it. I'm just worried now that I wont have anything else to blog about when my life starts to be more boring than this in the next 2 months... theres only so many ways I can make working as a waitress sound interesting and I think you've all heard way to many times that my room mates and co-workers are nice.
Other than that I talked to Toddar this morning, kinda upsetting because I had been looking forward to it all week, but he was really tired , it only lasted an hour, and he couldn't talk because Justin was sleeping in the room. But oh well Sundays convo will be better and plus... Ashley's coming from Scotland tomorrow to stay with me for five days! We've been planning this for months but it's finally happening, I swear I'm like a kid on Christmas eve. I bought tickets to go see Alexus on fire with Jill and J.B. So I have allot going on...I'm doing alright.
P/S... Isn't it amazing how I can make tree days of nothing in to one of the longest posts? It's a gift I'm telling you.
April 22 2007 and the Day after that...
Alright so my day 26 started off at 7:00 am with me waking up and think "it's ma berfday!" Followed but the though "Now what?" I decided that I was going to stay in bed until noon. And that I did even though I was awake at 11:15. When I did get out of bed I made plans for hat I was going to do. All the plans where shot to pieces when Whitney woke up and exclaimed that she didn't have to work. I didn't mind whatsoever I was happy to just have someone to be with on my birthday and she did that for me, what she also did was brought out a gift bag, in it was a card, a strength stone as well as a button that read "birthday girl", that I proceeded to ware all day long with my favorite shirt that I brought from home.
We decided to stick to my plan when it came to going to see TMNT at 3:30 but when we got to the theater we found out that the times for that movies showings had been changed. So the plans were changed to go see Pathfinder. I was kinda disappointed in the movie to tell you honestly. I was so excited to see it after watching the previews when I was back home.
After that we went back home where Trevor made a burrito dinner, Whitney and I had some and then while I was finishing up the two of them brought out pieces of cake that Trevor had bought as well. :) I made sure we all had drinks and we had our own little beer and cake.
When that was all said and done and dinner was history I went to the call shop, I talked to my mom my aunt cousin and Toddar.
When I got back, missing home a little bit more we had a final drink and then headed out on the town ... my pin and everything! :D It was a really good night, we started off in a small little pub for one of Whitney's co-workers going away party and after that we hit mare bars then ended in a late night club... we had to take a cab. That was my first time riding on the wrong side of the road (if you exclude the bus ride here at night that I barely remember anything about besides being so nervous and slightly nauseous.) Any way I took pictures. We all drank a bunch and danced. Good times... Good times!
That day was followed by my 27 day where I worked 11 hours! I got home checked my e-mail to see if I had any more birthday wishes and then went to bed.
We decided to stick to my plan when it came to going to see TMNT at 3:30 but when we got to the theater we found out that the times for that movies showings had been changed. So the plans were changed to go see Pathfinder. I was kinda disappointed in the movie to tell you honestly. I was so excited to see it after watching the previews when I was back home.
After that we went back home where Trevor made a burrito dinner, Whitney and I had some and then while I was finishing up the two of them brought out pieces of cake that Trevor had bought as well. :) I made sure we all had drinks and we had our own little beer and cake.
When that was all said and done and dinner was history I went to the call shop, I talked to my mom my aunt cousin and Toddar.
When I got back, missing home a little bit more we had a final drink and then headed out on the town ... my pin and everything! :D It was a really good night, we started off in a small little pub for one of Whitney's co-workers going away party and after that we hit mare bars then ended in a late night club... we had to take a cab. That was my first time riding on the wrong side of the road (if you exclude the bus ride here at night that I barely remember anything about besides being so nervous and slightly nauseous.) Any way I took pictures. We all drank a bunch and danced. Good times... Good times!
That day was followed by my 27 day where I worked 11 hours! I got home checked my e-mail to see if I had any more birthday wishes and then went to bed.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
April 19-21 2007
Alright so days 23-25 have officially just gone by in what seems to be a daze. A scattered mix of recollections that just might have something to do with the amount of alcohol that I've consumed in that time. lol. I'm just kidding.
Both Thursday and Friday I worked at Keatings as a hostess, it has got to be one of the most boring jobs out there. I seriously just stand there, 3 feet from the door and greet the people who walk in. I have to explain to them how the restaurant works, like the fact that we have 3 different dinning areas all with different menus and I have to try and get people to not just stay on the ground floor because they don't know what else to do. But! I cant seat them, just stand there and look pretty, I do that so naturally that theres really no work to it at all. lol ;) J/k But I get to meat and talk to many different people, some who don't speak a word of English and all I know is that their hungry. But thats the whole reason I'm here isn't it? I waitress all this next week so that should be better.
Other than that I've done allot of sitting around sleeping and just lying in my bed. Thinking... allot of thinking.
I tagged along with Trevor Thursday to go see the film 'Unknown'. It was actually really good, I enjoyed it. Then yesterday We decided that we would go out for my birthday because every one works all weekend. It was a great time! We met up with my friend Sara S from back home who just got in to Dublin 4 days ago on a work visa as well. We went to 4 bars, loosing Trevor after the first one because he had just given blood and was not really up to a whole night of drinking. The third one did him in and thats every strange. A nice little bit of information for all my Canadian loved ones... after you give blood in Ireland they give you a bag of chips, a chocolate bar and a pint of Guinness!! Only in Ireland I swear! Any way after it was just us girls, it was great we went to fun bars with great music and even better fellow drinkers who just continued to amuse us as the night went on and soon in to the morning. I was about 4:30 when Whitney and I got home grabbed some blankets and crashed on the floor in the living room so we didn't wake Trevor up. I was out like a light... but not for long.
2 hours later I was woken up by my alarm telling me that it was time to get up to meet with Toddar on msn. I thanked the fact that I didn't change out of my clothes the night before, put my shoes on and headed out. The meeting for the most part was not to bad. Besides the incompetent guy behind the desk at the shop and the crappy computers it was alright. It got a little emotional... scratch that... I got a little emotional. But I'm glad we talk about it and for the most part work through most things. I'm glad it hasn't been awkward, for us anyway. The people sitting beside a girl who is trying not to cry to hard while it looks like shes talking to herself might find it awkward. lol... but who cares. Most of all I have to say that I'm glad that I'm not angry. Everyones always angry after they break up, for various reasons, especially after a relationship thats lasted this long. It's a terrible feeling and one that I didn't want to experience, but after these 4 days I think that it's safe that I'm not angry in the least bit. It's a relief and something thats going to allow us both to work it all out in the best way possible and stay friends. Right now thats all that matters to me. We're continuing to make Internet 'dates'(and I'm using the work loosely. lol) Its weird because I still find myself wanting Tuesday (night at midnight Canadian) to come soon so that I can see & talk to him.
After an extended conversation with him I went to meet Sara for breakfast. I was like 45 mins late, so we just had coffee. It was good I talked to her and heard her opinions on what I should do. We discussed things about life while looking for a hair straightener for her. When she finally decided against the expensive cosmetic item and settled for bobby pins, we went our own way. I went home and got a call from Ashley. We talked for a quite a while. Just to talk. Shes coming over for about a week, she'll be here on Friday and I am so unbelievably excited! It's going to be great! After that I took a nice long bath, kinda fell asleep because we have one of those curved back tubs, so comfortable. Got out because I thought it might look a little suspicious if I drowned in the bath tub. (Believe me I'm not that upset really.lol) Then napped, it was soposed to only be for half an hour, but 3 hours later I crawled out of bed and decided that Mac Donald's Sounded good. With no Aaron or Toddar to yell at to go get it for me I had to put my shoes on and walk the 2 minuets to go get it myself! It was good. Not like back home. Every things smaller here. So like I told my mom I'm on a diet whether I like it or not. ;) The menus aren't the same and they don't have 10 packs of nuggets. Oh well just something else to add to the list of things that are different here. But it was still artery clogging good. Now I'm just sitting in the living room having no luck with trying to check my e-mail,while Trevor reads.I might throw in another load of laundry then head off to bed wallow in the bliss of my last few hours as a 'teenager'. I'm going to make up a list of things to do tomorrow to keep myself busy...every one works so I might go see a movie, take myself out for dinner or I might have a box of Macaroni from home.Either way it will be alright... nothing I'm not expecting.
Both Thursday and Friday I worked at Keatings as a hostess, it has got to be one of the most boring jobs out there. I seriously just stand there, 3 feet from the door and greet the people who walk in. I have to explain to them how the restaurant works, like the fact that we have 3 different dinning areas all with different menus and I have to try and get people to not just stay on the ground floor because they don't know what else to do. But! I cant seat them, just stand there and look pretty, I do that so naturally that theres really no work to it at all. lol ;) J/k But I get to meat and talk to many different people, some who don't speak a word of English and all I know is that their hungry. But thats the whole reason I'm here isn't it? I waitress all this next week so that should be better.
Other than that I've done allot of sitting around sleeping and just lying in my bed. Thinking... allot of thinking.
I tagged along with Trevor Thursday to go see the film 'Unknown'. It was actually really good, I enjoyed it. Then yesterday We decided that we would go out for my birthday because every one works all weekend. It was a great time! We met up with my friend Sara S from back home who just got in to Dublin 4 days ago on a work visa as well. We went to 4 bars, loosing Trevor after the first one because he had just given blood and was not really up to a whole night of drinking. The third one did him in and thats every strange. A nice little bit of information for all my Canadian loved ones... after you give blood in Ireland they give you a bag of chips, a chocolate bar and a pint of Guinness!! Only in Ireland I swear! Any way after it was just us girls, it was great we went to fun bars with great music and even better fellow drinkers who just continued to amuse us as the night went on and soon in to the morning. I was about 4:30 when Whitney and I got home grabbed some blankets and crashed on the floor in the living room so we didn't wake Trevor up. I was out like a light... but not for long.
2 hours later I was woken up by my alarm telling me that it was time to get up to meet with Toddar on msn. I thanked the fact that I didn't change out of my clothes the night before, put my shoes on and headed out. The meeting for the most part was not to bad. Besides the incompetent guy behind the desk at the shop and the crappy computers it was alright. It got a little emotional... scratch that... I got a little emotional. But I'm glad we talk about it and for the most part work through most things. I'm glad it hasn't been awkward, for us anyway. The people sitting beside a girl who is trying not to cry to hard while it looks like shes talking to herself might find it awkward. lol... but who cares. Most of all I have to say that I'm glad that I'm not angry. Everyones always angry after they break up, for various reasons, especially after a relationship thats lasted this long. It's a terrible feeling and one that I didn't want to experience, but after these 4 days I think that it's safe that I'm not angry in the least bit. It's a relief and something thats going to allow us both to work it all out in the best way possible and stay friends. Right now thats all that matters to me. We're continuing to make Internet 'dates'(and I'm using the work loosely. lol) Its weird because I still find myself wanting Tuesday (night at midnight Canadian) to come soon so that I can see & talk to him.
After an extended conversation with him I went to meet Sara for breakfast. I was like 45 mins late, so we just had coffee. It was good I talked to her and heard her opinions on what I should do. We discussed things about life while looking for a hair straightener for her. When she finally decided against the expensive cosmetic item and settled for bobby pins, we went our own way. I went home and got a call from Ashley. We talked for a quite a while. Just to talk. Shes coming over for about a week, she'll be here on Friday and I am so unbelievably excited! It's going to be great! After that I took a nice long bath, kinda fell asleep because we have one of those curved back tubs, so comfortable. Got out because I thought it might look a little suspicious if I drowned in the bath tub. (Believe me I'm not that upset really.lol) Then napped, it was soposed to only be for half an hour, but 3 hours later I crawled out of bed and decided that Mac Donald's Sounded good. With no Aaron or Toddar to yell at to go get it for me I had to put my shoes on and walk the 2 minuets to go get it myself! It was good. Not like back home. Every things smaller here. So like I told my mom I'm on a diet whether I like it or not. ;) The menus aren't the same and they don't have 10 packs of nuggets. Oh well just something else to add to the list of things that are different here. But it was still artery clogging good. Now I'm just sitting in the living room having no luck with trying to check my e-mail,while Trevor reads.I might throw in another load of laundry then head off to bed wallow in the bliss of my last few hours as a 'teenager'. I'm going to make up a list of things to do tomorrow to keep myself busy...every one works so I might go see a movie, take myself out for dinner or I might have a box of Macaroni from home.Either way it will be alright... nothing I'm not expecting.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
April 18 2007
Alright well today I'm doing something I have never done...I'm bogging in the middle of the day I'm bogging about. That is because this, my 22 day of being away from home is officially the worst day I have had yet... and I'm thinking that it is going to be quite tough to beat.
Not that the day itself is bad. We reached plus 20 degrees in the sun, I got some tax work done and I work from 6 pm to midnight.
But none of that matter because this morning I had the conversation with Toddar that I had been hopping against all hope we could go 9 months with out having. I don't know what I can say... Hopefully it all works out in the end... but right now... it's a painful numbing feeling that has been driving me out of my mind evey second since it started but I’m not to sure if I want to go away, for fear that the feeling that it's covering just might be more excruciating. I don't know if I could handle it.
I think Toddar said it right...'screaming in silence'.
Not that the day itself is bad. We reached plus 20 degrees in the sun, I got some tax work done and I work from 6 pm to midnight.
But none of that matter because this morning I had the conversation with Toddar that I had been hopping against all hope we could go 9 months with out having. I don't know what I can say... Hopefully it all works out in the end... but right now... it's a painful numbing feeling that has been driving me out of my mind evey second since it started but I’m not to sure if I want to go away, for fear that the feeling that it's covering just might be more excruciating. I don't know if I could handle it.
I think Toddar said it right...'screaming in silence'.
April 17 2007
So my day 21 started at 8 am, not as bad as some but not as good as others.I got up that early to wish Trisha a great trip back home to Vancouver. I'll face book stalk her some time but it will be different not having her around. When she was gone i reminded myself that this is what I'm in for for the next 9 months to a year. Even the friends that I will make for a long time when I'm here, I will have to say good bye to. One day all of us, Jill, Trevor, Whitney and I will all go our own way, I'm sure we'll all stay in touch but we'll all have different things in store for ourselves.
So its made me think that its even more important to keep the the friends I have back home...( not that I did'nt know that before.) But whats going to happen when I'm all done with this travle thing? Mostly every one will be in with their own lives, in thier own careers, going to school to get careers or ... even having kids... Trevor said that its a combination of both my friends and myself... the changes that make it hard because you get back in to it thinking their just like you remembered... but people change... even in a year. I can try my hardest to stay in touch but I can't expect them to be as serious as I am because they all think the same thing...'she'll be back'. I don't think that I can sort out all the thoughts in my head for you all but I will say that by the time I got out of the shower I felt sick to my stomach.
I went to work after that and had to fill my head with all new names to remember of all the new people I met. Every ones so friendly. I find it so bad that I find it hard to remember every ones names. And in fact I don't. After only a 5 hour shift they sent me home. There I had a nap and had to try and deal with the internet but it didn't co-operate. It kicked me off the conversation that I was having with Aaron and my mom, But I'm going to the call shop at midnight canadian time tonight, so hopeflly I'll see them and can explain. Other thasn that I think that I'm going to bed early. I have an early day tomorrow. Pluse all I'm doing is watching Trevor play tetrus.
So its made me think that its even more important to keep the the friends I have back home...( not that I did'nt know that before.) But whats going to happen when I'm all done with this travle thing? Mostly every one will be in with their own lives, in thier own careers, going to school to get careers or ... even having kids... Trevor said that its a combination of both my friends and myself... the changes that make it hard because you get back in to it thinking their just like you remembered... but people change... even in a year. I can try my hardest to stay in touch but I can't expect them to be as serious as I am because they all think the same thing...'she'll be back'. I don't think that I can sort out all the thoughts in my head for you all but I will say that by the time I got out of the shower I felt sick to my stomach.
I went to work after that and had to fill my head with all new names to remember of all the new people I met. Every ones so friendly. I find it so bad that I find it hard to remember every ones names. And in fact I don't. After only a 5 hour shift they sent me home. There I had a nap and had to try and deal with the internet but it didn't co-operate. It kicked me off the conversation that I was having with Aaron and my mom, But I'm going to the call shop at midnight canadian time tonight, so hopeflly I'll see them and can explain. Other thasn that I think that I'm going to bed early. I have an early day tomorrow. Pluse all I'm doing is watching Trevor play tetrus.
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